hey so i thought id send you a quick update on me. :)
I love love love Cambodia:) its amazing here! I'm living with my MTC campanion and its basically the happiest, cause she knows me best out of anyone here on the mission. I think God knew that i needed her cause its only been 4 days into the new transfer, and its been the roughest one yet. My comp is khmae and theres just a lot of culture differences we have to get used to. But things are already getting better, so its going to be a good transfer! so living with my companion health is rising:)
Physically, I'm doing super good. I try to eat really healthy, because everything here is made with a ton of oil and rice lolz so ususally i eat just veggies and meat for lunch and i feel amazing!! and of course, a ton of fruit-which is my favorite:):)
Spiritually, I'm, doing really good. I had a really cool exp yesterday at church. About a year ago, i heard this talk about how in order to use the atonement in our lives, we have to break. and i read it at least once a month, and since being on my mission, i read it quite often. as the last couple of days have been rough, i have just focused on the fact that its ok that its hard, its ok to break, its ok to not be the perfect trainer, or to get lost (were whitewashing), and its ok that my comp and i dont agree because all of that allows us to grow and to use the atonement. but sunday was pretty rough, and we were sitting during the sacrament, and i just flipped open my scriptures, and it opened to a scripture in that talk i read all the time about how christ changes our hearts. execkiel 11:19-20. it is definitely one of my favorite talks. it reminded me once again that i truly am graven upon the palm of His hand. and its not going to be easy, changing hearts never is. but he will give us little by little, so that line upon line, our hearts can be changed. so spiritually, everythings going way good. im learning so much about the gospel. before the mission, i never felt adequate to talk about gospel topics, or to teach or to share anything because i didnt understand enough. but now im very confident. my personal study every day is probably my fav part of the day, because i just get to learn and bask in the wonderfullness (this is the closest translation of a word in khmae but i cant think of what else it would be haha) of the gospel.
emotionally, im doing way good. its incredible to be such an intricate part in the lords work everyday. tp truly help others on their path to true happiness. mom, im so blessed to be here. sometimes, i still pinch myself in awe that god thought i was good enough to come to this tiny corner of the world where people have nothing, and hearts are broken, and miracles-like real straight miracles-happen day to day. it is awe-inspiring. i wish i had to the words to explain the awe i feel about the gospel, and the atonement and the people and the experiences here.
the language is really hard. im training and whitewashing, which should be fine, cause im training someone who grew up in this language, but whats hard is making up for what she doesnt yet understand about missionary work, when i dont have the language skills. i know more than ever that the gift of tongues is real, but i honestly dont know if ill ever be fluent in this language, past being able to share what i need to about the gospel, which is really hard to begin to realize. because i know as long as i can share the gospel, thats whats important, but i love these people so much i want more than anything to be able to converse easily with them. But this is not an easy language, and i only have 1 more year to learn and share the gospel. so just pray that i will receive a TON of help from God. but it really is going good! and i have learned A TON in the last week as i have had to take the lead. god is truly so good.
Also super stoked for General Conference. Its always one of my favorite times of the year. let me know if the fam needs anything! also soon theres a holiday here, so we will just get to ready scriptures and stay inside all day. which sounds like a dream:)!!!
So overall, im doing way good!! Im learning so so much and growing a ton. i love you and the fam and am so grateful for the support you always give.
have a great week!
sis smith